“You’re so beautiful, how could I not?” Sizhui murmurs back, looking over the others face. He truly was beautiful. Every part of him was. And Sizhui already felt possessive enough over every single one of those parts.
Jin Ling feels himself flush and the way the other looks at him just makes
him feel more wanted than he has ever before in any way. He swallows and
kisses Sizhui again, lips parted to invite a deeper kiss.
A deeper kiss he gets. Sizhui groans softly into it and shifts closer; brushing their bodies together because he couldn’t stop himself. He just wanted to touch every inch of this boy and never stop.
Of course they would have to stop. But not right now.
He reached down and nudged the others legs apart so he could settle between them. Not for sex. They weren’t going to have sex he just wanted closer.
Jin Ling mewls lowly into the kiss as their bodies touch again and then the other is pushing his legs apart and his stomach lurches nervously. But he does spread them for Sizhui, he would even if the other was going to have sex with him again. He wants to have sex. He just doesn't want it to hurt like it did before, like it'd kept hurting after for longer than he liked.
Sizhui pulled from the kiss so he could look over the others face again. Sex was something he wanted. But he wanted to make sure he knew the right way to go about it before they attempted that again. Hurting Jin Ling was not something he wanted and he didn’t want that to be the only thing the other remembered about it.
“Once we’re better prepared for it, I definitely want to try again,” he murmurs, “but I won’t risk hurting you again. When the time comes...it’ll be the way it was meant to be.”
Jin Ling relaxes a little at the other's assurance. He'd been scared that maybe he'd ruined it forever and maybe that's part of why he'd snuck into the other's room to give him a blowjob. He doesn't know exactly.
He leans up to press their lips together again, his hand burying into the other's hair and cups the back of his head.
Smiling gently, Sizhui returns that kiss and every one in between. The other teen had done nothing wrong. His only crimes were being a brat and sexier than should be legal. It was ruining Sizhuis calm.
The Lan offered a bite to the others bottom lip and he hummed as his hips rolled down against Jin Lings.
Jin Ling still felt guilty and nothing would ever really change the fact that he felt like he'd messed it up. His fingers twisted in the other's hair, lips parting at the bite and he moans as their hips roll together and it sends a spark of pleasure through him.
The ribbon is pulled tight in the midst of that tangling and Sizhui chuckles softly against the others mouth, “You really want the ribbon don’t you...”
Jin Ling stares at Sizhui and he knew what the ribbon meant to them, he knew the only people allowed to touch them. He bit his lip as he stares at the other, his ears going pink again.
Laughing softly, Sizhui pushed himself up a bit higher and looked over the others face, “Am I really sure? I just had you in my mouth and I’ve promised sex in the future. If you think I’m offering that to everyone you’re wrong,” he slowly let his eyes travel down the length of the other teens body, “I know what I’m offering you. Are you sure you want to accept it?”
Jin Ling meets the other's gaze even if the words make him want to look away, his cheeks heating and it's not like Sizhui is wrong. He'd done all that and Jin Ling had just had him in his mouth too and now they're pressed against each other naked still -- and the way the other looks at him.
Jin Ling wouldn't say so but he really likes it.
"Mm," Jin Ling exhales, his fingers brushing against the ribbon intentionally for a brief moment.
Sizhui doesn’t move for a moment; letting Jin Ling touch the soft ribbon.
It felt nice...letting someone in like this. Every moment he spent with Jin Ling made him wonder if this was what Hanguang jun felt like whenever he was around Wei Wuxian.
His heart beat harder the more time spaces between them and he blushed lightly, “...do...you want to stay with me?”
But he can see the fear or the discomfort written all over the other teens face. It is a lot. He knows that.
He also knows that if that isn’t something the other wants; that he won’t sleep with him. Sizhui makes no move to state it as such but he won’t try again if they aren’t actually serious.
He bites his bottom lip and slowly sits further back, “It’s a lot. I know. You don’t have to answer that right now.”
His lip found it’s way back into his mouth and he glances down because he knows that isn’t the way the other meant it but it is the way Sizhui immediately took it.
“I think you should think about it more. I told you you didn’t need to answer right away,” he murmurs, still trying to be quiet considering his room was much closer to Hanguang jun and Wei Wuxian. The last thing they needed was someone else walking in on them naked.
Leaning over he presses a kiss to the other teens forehead and then slides back to his own side of the bed, “Stay.”
Jin Ling blinks at the other's reaction, frowning.
"I already gave you my answer. Don't tell me how much I need to think," Jin Ling shoots back, sitting up when the other slid off of him and the sudden shift throws him because hadn't Sizhui been wanting to do it again and now he's over there.
“You can’t give me that as your answer just because you think I’m your last resort,” Sizhui counters and adjusts the blanket so that Jin Ling would be able to come closer to him.
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Jin Ling feels himself flush and the way the other looks at him just makes him feel more wanted than he has ever before in any way. He swallows and kisses Sizhui again, lips parted to invite a deeper kiss.
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Of course they would have to stop. But not right now.
He reached down and nudged the others legs apart so he could settle between them. Not for sex. They weren’t going to have sex he just wanted closer.
“Don’t worry. I’m not going to...do that.”
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"We're...going to sometime, right?"
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“Once we’re better prepared for it, I definitely want to try again,” he murmurs, “but I won’t risk hurting you again. When the time comes...it’ll be the way it was meant to be.”
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He leans up to press their lips together again, his hand burying into the other's hair and cups the back of his head.
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The Lan offered a bite to the others bottom lip and he hummed as his hips rolled down against Jin Lings.
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The ribbon was a thing. It meant things. Symbolized them. It wasn’t to be taken lightly.
“You’re allowed to touch it. I give you permission...”
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"Are you really sure?"
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Laughing softly, Sizhui pushed himself up a bit higher and looked over the others face, “Am I really sure? I just had you in my mouth and I’ve promised sex in the future. If you think I’m offering that to everyone you’re wrong,” he slowly let his eyes travel down the length of the other teens body, “I know what I’m offering you. Are you sure you want to accept it?”
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Jin Ling wouldn't say so but he really likes it.
"Mm," Jin Ling exhales, his fingers brushing against the ribbon intentionally for a brief moment.
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It felt nice...letting someone in like this. Every moment he spent with Jin Ling made him wonder if this was what Hanguang jun felt like whenever he was around Wei Wuxian.
His heart beat harder the more time spaces between them and he blushed lightly, “...do...you want to stay with me?”
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“That, too,” he smirks softly, “but I meant...do you want to be with me as a partner. For life.”
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But he can see the fear or the discomfort written all over the other teens face. It is a lot. He knows that.
He also knows that if that isn’t something the other wants; that he won’t sleep with him. Sizhui makes no move to state it as such but he won’t try again if they aren’t actually serious.
He bites his bottom lip and slowly sits further back, “It’s a lot. I know. You don’t have to answer that right now.”
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"No... For life... yes... my answer is yes," it's scary and it's a lot and Jin Ling is freaking out some inside but he knows he'd never say no to it.
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Did he really mean it? Or was he just scared this would stop if he said no?
Sizhui continued to worry his bottom lip.
“Are you really okay being with just me?”
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"Who else would be with me?" Jin Ling says and it's a joke.
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His lip found it’s way back into his mouth and he glances down because he knows that isn’t the way the other meant it but it is the way Sizhui immediately took it.
“I think you should think about it more. I told you you didn’t need to answer right away,” he murmurs, still trying to be quiet considering his room was much closer to Hanguang jun and Wei Wuxian. The last thing they needed was someone else walking in on them naked.
Leaning over he presses a kiss to the other teens forehead and then slides back to his own side of the bed, “Stay.”
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"I already gave you my answer. Don't tell me how much I need to think," Jin Ling shoots back, sitting up when the other slid off of him and the sudden shift throws him because hadn't Sizhui been wanting to do it again and now he's over there.
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