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[bluebun]

I’m happy we’re all together. I did choose the room closest to them because I know you would prefer space.

[jinlingers]

[ Why is he so nice all the time? ]

Thanks, I guess.

[bluebun]

Unless you wanted the room right across from them....

[jinlingers]

Uh no. It’s gonna be bad even further away I’m sure of it.

[bluebun]

Oh. So you are unhappy to be with us, then.

[jinlingers]

...

[ god talking to people is so hard sometimes. ]

Wei Wuxian is annoying. And loud. And... I’ve never had to share so little space before.

[bluebun]

For what it is worth—I’m happy that you’re there with me.

[bluebun]

I’m going to tell Hanguang jun.

[jinlingers]

What!? Why?

[bluebun]

Because if I don’t and he just finds out he will think I’ve been hiding it from him.

[jinlingers]

Who would tell him what we did!

[ Jin Ling knows he’s going to be so dead. ]

[bluebun]

He would definitely find out. We live together.

[jinlingers]

But we don’t do anything there...

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[taciturnly]

Jin Rulan.

[jinlingers]

Yes, Hanguang Jun?

[taciturnly]

Treat him well.

[jinlingers]

Oh. Yes.

I mean, of course.

[taciturnly]

Gusulan are not butchers.

[jinlingers]

He told you that much...?

Post-FailSex // Action

[bluebun]

It’s well past bed time by the time Sizhui silently sneaks out of his room. He is careful not to disturb anyone else in the suite (namely his fathers).

The door is tricky but he manages to open and close it behind him once he’s let himself into Jin Lings room. He’s still silent as he shakes out his blanket a little and crawls into the bed behind the young Jin.

“Shh...it’s just me.”

[jinlingers]

Aside from taking some time in the bathroom, Jin Ling hadn't left his room at all. He'd stayed laying on his side, hugging one of his pillows and trying not to think but ending up thinking too much. His nerves are frayed and when the other crawls into bed, he tenses and he almost instinctively reaches for Suihua but the other's voice calms him a little.

It really is just Sizhui.

God, he still feels so humiliated. He uses the pillow he's hugging to send a pillow hit behind him before curling around it again his arms hugged tight around it once more.

[bluebun]

The flying pillow was not expected and Sizhui makes a muffled sound followed by something resembling ‘ow’.

Deserved.

He deserved that.

The Lan hesitated a moment and then adjusted his blanket and scoot close enough to spoon ip behind the other. He was careful, though, not to get too close but he did nuzzle into the others hair, “Can I sleep with you?”

[jinlingers]

Deep down, Jin Ling feels guilty but he ignores it. He feels the other pressing close behind him and anxiety spreads through him and he knows the other isn't going to do anything but his body isn't totally getting the message yet.

"Mmm," is his answer, and he's not upset with Sizhui. He's just embarrassed and he's upset with himself that he hadn't made it work. Every insecurity seemed to fuel itself on the whole ordeal.

[bluebun]

Sizhui pulls his upper body closer (he doesn’t want to get too close below the waist for obvious reasons) and hesitates before wrapping an arm around him.

“If you ever want to try again I’ll be better prepared so I don’t hurt you...” he whispers, “I’m really sorry.”

[jinlingers]

Jin Ling doesn't stop hugging the pillow but he doesn't shrug off the other's arm. He bites the inside of his cheek a bit harshly.

"Stop saying sorry. It's my fault."