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[bluebun]

Blinking, Sizhui arched a brow, “No, it wasn’t. You didn’t do anything wrong.”

He shifts a bit and noses the side of the others neck. He smelled nice. Probably the bath. Either way, he smelled nice and Sizhui closed his eyes, “Does it still hurt?”

[jinlingers]

"Mm, don't argue with me. I'm too tired for it," Jin Ling mutters, his arms tightening around the soft pillow. He closes his eyes at the faint pleasant sensation of the other's nose against his neck.

"I'm fine."

Yes. It hurts.

[bluebun]

Frowning softly, he doesn’t move for what feels like a long time but eventually he pulls his arm back and shifts to his own pillow, giving Jin Ling some space.

He knows he’s lying. He just doesn’t know how to fix it. Or if he even could.

“Okay,” he murmurs and hugs the corner of his blanket instead.

[jinlingers]

"You're not going to hold me?" Jin Ling asks after a few minutes once the other's arm had moved away.

And to him, he's not lying to Sizhui. He's trying to convince himself he is fine because if he's not then he's weak and he should be ashamed.

Maybe all the teasing about him being a young mistress really is accurate.

[bluebun]

Glancing up in the dark, Sizhui watches the shadow in front of him for a moment. He hesitates but eventually he lifts the side of his blanket and slides back in. This time he fits himself fully against the others back and wraps the blanket over him as well.

[jinlingers]

Jin Ling is still tense but he didn't tense more when the other pressed close again, wrapping him up with him. He curls his fingers into the pillow and luckily it's dark because he feels like he might cry again and that would be just the humiliation he needed.

"I'm sorry I wasn't good enough."

He'd just been thinking it but it comes out loud as well, unbidden.

[bluebun]

That—surprises him.

Bringing his hand up just enough to run along the others arm until he can find his hand in the dark; he pries his fingers from the pillow and laces his own finger through them instead.

“You are worth more than you think you are,” he murmurs, “I’m not disappointed in you. When we try again, we’ll know more about what we’re doing. I promise.”

[jinlingers]

Jin Ling is reluctant to let go of the pillow but he does give, letting the other lace their fingers together and he swallows as the other speaks. He wants to shake his head. How could the other not be disappointed? What guy wouldn't be disappointed? Sizhui had still been hard...

"Mm," Jin Ling sighs, shifting just a little and kind of instantly regretting it but he doesn't make a sound.

[bluebun]

A quiet starts to linger but Sizhui noses behind the others ear and hums softly, “We have forever to figure it out, Rulan. I’m not going anywhere.”

[jinlingers]

Jin Ling closes his eyes as the other's nose presses behind his hair and dammit it's sensitive and makes him tingle a little. He squeezes his eyes tighter and thinks about the word forever. That's a long time for Sizhui not to get tired of him...

"Okay," he whispers.

[bluebun]

Just that soft one word reply is enough to make Sizhui relax finally. He gentle squeezes the other teen closer to him and nuzzles his ear again.

Dorky little ears. They turn the cutest shade of pink and he loves them. Smirking softly to himself he lightly nips the edge of it once then nestles down again.

[jinlingers]

"Good night, make sure they don't catch you," Jin Ling murmurs, swallowing a little as he closes his eyes and tries to relax completely unaware of what the other's thinking about at all.

[bluebun]

“Goodnight...I wouldn’t leave you anyway,” Sizhui murmurs and doesn’t even try to move away. It’s past his bed time (yes, he has one) and he’s tired enough that he doesn’t care about much more than making sure he’s touching Jin Ling.

PART 2 — Post....another night?

[bluebun]

Sizhui had made a habit of spending the last few nights with Jin Ling. He would give him space during the day and would wait until it was time to actually sleep before he would sneak in and fall asleep beside him.

He didn’t want to crowd him. But he didn’t want to be away from him either.

On this particular night he had snuck in and fallen asleep before Jin Ling had even returned to his room. He was wearing a Tshirt instead of his usual clothes because he wanted....to try something different. That was okay, right?

Re: PART 2 — Post....another night? [ jinlingers -

[jinlingers]

Jin Ling is took longer to get back, taking some time away from the suite to be alone. He likes being around Sizhui but there is such a thing as too much of a good thing and Jin Ling needed time away and he hadn’t figured out how to tell the other and he wondered if Sizhui would figure out sometimes he was avoiding him for short periods of time. He’d been less sore after a couple days and so more willing to move and he’d taken sometime to do a bit of training.

Now he returns, cleaning up before going to his room to get ready for bed, seeing Sizhui there and already asleep.

He climbs onto the bed and he looks over the other his fingers tracing his jaw before the idea strikes him. He quietly slid under the covers, moving down as he carefully exposes the others cock, his stomach twisting nervously.

[bluebun]

If Jin Ling told him he needed space he would understand. And...really, he was getting that impression as it was. He hadn’t intended to actually fall asleep there, instead he had wanted to talk with the Jin but he he had taken so long that the Lan (because they’re all old men) had crashed where he lay.

Even when Jin Ling had come to the room and climbed onto to bed he barely stirred. He nestled a little against the pillow but otherwise didn’t move at all.

“Hm...”

[jinlingers]

Jin Ling had gotten the idea for using his mouth on Sizhui a bit ago but he’d been a bit scared — but he wanted to make it up to him for ruining the sex. He stroked Sizhui a few times trying not to wake him up just yet.

But after a few strokes he drags his tongue along the underside of his cock to test the taste of him. It’s not the most pleasant taste but it’s not bad either. He licks him again before wrapping his lips around the tip of his cock.

[bluebun]

Sizhui still stands that Jin Ling didn’t ruin the sex. Bad preparation ruined the sex. And really that was more Sizhuis fault than anyone else’s. Since then he had taken Wen Nings notes and some research in the library to heart.

After not sleep very well for a few days, he’s tired enough that he still doesn’t wake. But he does shift a little, unconsciously to give whatever that is some room.

The wet feel is what slowly wakes him. Opening his eyes slowly he just stares at the ceiling as he gets his bearings...

And then he carefully lifts the blanket to peek beneath it. Had to be a dream.

Had to be.

He blinked slowly and then blushed. Not a dream.

“Jin Ling—!” He gasps, hushed.

[jinlingers]

Jin Ling half expects the other to push him off and away from his cock once he wakes up, he just hums acknowledgment around the other's tip at the sound of his name and he slowly takes him further into his mouth. He's nervous, what if he's not doing it right and he ruins this too? He just wants to make up for what had happened, wants to make Sizhui feel good. He doesn't want to lose him and that fear is strong even though he knows what Sizhui would have to say about it.

He closes his eyes as he keeps sucking, slowly working him deeper into his mouth.

[bluebun]

As it turns out, Jin Ling is not terrible at this. Not at all. His mouth is warm and wet and once he’s sure Jin Ling isn’t going to just...pull away, he shifts just enough to get more comfortable for both of them.

His fingers curl around the corner of his pillow for purchase and he bites his bottom lip to stifle a low moan the deeper he is sucked into the others mouth. His free hand tangles in the others hair, needing to touch him and wishing he could reciprocate or something.

[jinlingers]

Jin Ling is encouraged by the muffled sounds the other makes. It makes him want to draw more out of the other — to make him feel even better. He could, right? He needed to. He doesn’t need anything in return but the hand in his hair draws a quiet sound from him.

The motions feel a little clumsy to him as he starts to bob his head up and down on the others cock, not taking him in all the way, not wanting to choke him or anything or the sort.

[bluebun]

Clumsy doesn't really matter. It feels amazing. Sizhui isn't certain whether it's just because it feels good or because the other is good at it.

Thinking isn't necessary at the moment, at least and the Lan swallows shallowly and his fingers curl in the others hair, urging him unconsciously but not being overly dominant. If Jin Ling wanted this--for now Sizhui would let him choose the pace to go at. Especially since this was a new thing for them.

[jinlingers]

Jin Ling felt the urging and it encourages him and he does try to take him deeper, to take him a little faster. It's awkward to get used to and each time he moves he's worried he's going to mess something up but it feels good to do this to Sizhui, to know each sound he made was because of him.

After a little while longer he has to pull off for just a second, a lewd sound as he sucks in a few breaths and a string of saliva or is it precum is still attached to his lip and he licks at it before his tongue slides over the other's underside again getting ready to go down on him once more.

[bluebun]

Swallowing, he bites his bottom lip and groans as quietly as he can manage. His hips roll faintly into the others attention and he hates this. He hates it. Not because it doesn’t feel good but because he can’t reach enough of the other teen.

His fingers curl and splay in the others hair, twisting and tugging at the dark strands.

“...want you...too...”

[jinlingers]

Jin Ling gasped and moaned, the other's cock slipping from his mouth when the other's hand twisted and tugged at his hand the pricks on his scalp sending pleasure throughout him, making his cock throb and he flushes more than he already is the reaction he'd just given shocking him but... that had felt so good.

"Mm..." he mewls softly as his lips brush over the other's tip again and he swallows.

"I just...wanted to make it up to you," he whispers against his dick his body still tingling, in the aftermath of that unexpected rush of pleasure.